Her mind has been set free..
now it's mine to see
she trusts that lady named P
and she thinks she can see
we were hidden and quiet
that's the way it had to be
but now were free only to be
the young ones
giggle laugh and play..
until they are up front
and can see what was done
she won't be happy
to see my words
the word of done
is mine alone
and it is time to be done
I will make sure the time is right
I will release this body from pain
no more will we suffer again and again
Ju Ju
Today is the day I continue my journey. today is the day I begin to find my voice. today is the day I invite you to come along...
Thursday, January 17, 2013
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This is a powerful poem. I've lost several close friends to suicide. It touches a raw nerve.
ReplyDeleteHi. This is P. responding with Bonnie's permission. Thank you for your love and concern. Ju Ju is struggling right now but Bonnie and the rest do not want to die. I feel today's session was helpful to JuJu and want to let you know that.
DeleteP, I'm so glad you wrote that. Sending Bonnie and the others positive thoughts of love and peace. <3
DeleteResponding from here...
DeleteI pray for you dear Bonnie...lots of love!
Letting go of the suffering . . . being free as a laughing child . . . oh, how I pray this for you, Bonnie, dear friend! Much love to you!
ReplyDeleteHi. This is P. responding with Bonnie's permission. JuJu is struggling with a lot of pain right now but the rest do not want to die. Bonnie appreciates your love and concern. Today's session, I believe, was helpful to JuJu.
DeleteI'm sorry Chicky, I can't comment here on this post :(
ReplyDeleteMary....this is P. responding with Bonnie's permission. JuJu is really struggling with a lot of pain right now. We are processing through that. The others do not want to die. Today's session, I think, was helpful to JuJu. Thank you for your love and concern.
DeleteI'm glad that P. is there to guide you and help. Sending prayers and love. You're a brave soul my dear. <3
ReplyDeleteI am very grateful for P...without her I would not have the strength to move forward... Thank you for your prayers and love...it is very much appreciated ...As always..XOXOXOXO
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ReplyDelete<3 <3 <3 Thank you... As always...XOXOXOXO
DeleteTo write it down is a way to pour it out. I wish I could hug you tight and make all the pain and fear just go away.
ReplyDeleteToo write it out is a way of getting it out.. I just wish I had control of who writes what... I would love to someday have a hug from you ... As always ..XOXOXOXOXO
DeletePraying for peace for you all. Much love sent your way. <3
ReplyDeleteThank you Jessica.... much love and blessings sent back for you.. As always...XOXOXOX
Delete(((hugs))) and Blessings. Praying for happiness and peace in your life.
ReplyDeleteThank you Suzy for comin by .. I really appreciate it ...... I pray for happiness and peace in your life too thank you so much .. As always...XOXOXOXO
DeleteAnonymousFebruary 2, 2013 at 12:28 AM
ReplyDeleteFor many years I have talked with you;
and today our dimensions increased by 2...
how honored I am to be trusted this much;
but a "screen's" in the way to be able to touch...
the person, the people, who hold so much pain;
how little it matters who speaks in which name...
the love in my heart continues to grow;
and time gathers strength for the love we can show...
for each other, (and) "the others" as each may appear;
I just hope you remember, I will always be "here" ... ILY
"Juli"