I LOVE YOU FOREVER

Write Bon Write...
 it's really hard right now..
my thoughts are in chaos...
my words bouncing around...
my mind is mush...

I'm in the I HATE therapy phase..
been here before but not in such a big way...
too much is happening ..too much is changing....
I'm not strong enough to do it.....
truth I DON'T WANT TO DO IT

I'm scared of it.. I'm seeing too much...
the crying is back.. it doesn't stop...
flash backs intense....
things I don't want to see

I hold PBB tight.. but it's not enough
my body shakes from the inside out...

my dreams at night are violent and vivid...

I don't know where things belong..
it's all mixed up...

therapy mixes everything up more...
I don't wanna know more...

I wanna go back
to a place when I appeared fine..
where no one knew...
it was a secret...
just like all the other secrets in my life..

People are bad... people hurt you...
Sam I am is here...
Ju Ju is here..
they both are telling...

They like this P
I need to stop them...
I need to fix this....

I need to be done..
I hear in my head:






I love you forever
I like you for always
as long as I'm living
my baby you'll be ..

Help me they say..
help me they...


Together...I love you


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