OWNING THIS

so all these alters are in my head ..
and they hold all this pain..
wich is supposedly   my pain...

how do I ever see or feel it as me ..
who out there has an answer cause I don't

I have a hard time seeing any of this as happening to me ..
but I sure do feel it during a flashback..

a flashback is when you are thrown bits of pieces of trauma at you
and you are inside feeling the actual pain....
this is at the point I cant get out and I hope Sam can call P

Today P showed Sam and MiMi How she picked up the grandmother and uncle and through them out of her room..
she told them both that they were safe..
 and she let them touch her hand..
they like to touch her...

she feels warm and safe and strong and she promises she will protect us...

but I'm still scared because things are still thrown at me during the night and
we won't call anyone during the night,,
we respect others boundaries and thier lives..
so we have a dilemma at night..
I suppose I Can write an email to calm my self down..
and still hope it happens during the day...

Together..I love you


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