sometimes it's horrible in my own head ..like monsters attacking me..
and im' a gentle and loving person..
and the monster inside is scaring the little ones ..
for the first time in a long time,,,
I am afraid of not seeing p for a weekend..
andIi told her so..
and rationally it makes sense this is a job and she has family..
I get that
..
but this week there has been no rationality..
I want her here all to myself to hold me and keep me safe..Sam is the one that holds the phone
and she repeats sam call pat sam call pat...
it scares me the day she actually follows through..
I have , we all have been struggling with Ju JU..
who has been torturing us by telling us we can't speak nor see p
,,, and that our demise will take place..
but before she gets that angry she has set me on fire with flash backs
of her pain.. they burn as of my flesh as it is sizzling in the fire,,
but I sure hope sam calls P...
Together I love YOu
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<3 Sending hugs <3
ReplyDeleteAwhhh Chicky, you are going through a horrible time and I truly wish there was something I could do or say that would help. I feel for JuJu. She endured so much and still survived. I hope that one day, your story is told so that others understand the torture that occurs at adults hands and are helped. Sending you BIG {{{{{ Bonnie}}}}}}!!
ReplyDeleteOh I am scared of what I read but I know someone inside will hold you together so you'll make it through...
ReplyDeleteLoving you Bonnie... you are not alone. God is always with you.
Remember you are never alone. Sending you love and light.
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