THE HORROR OF DID

I'm in turmoil...
 Im in chaos..
I'm in some kind of abyss..
I'm lost..

Is there anyone out there that..
 understands the complete horror of being DID?
sure it is why I survived...
but is the price of survival ...
fear and pain for the rest of your life?




Is therapy a good thing?
is it worth seeing more and more..
is it worth waking up to horrific pictures..
that someone inside has drawn..
is it worth the constant thoughts of death...

The ones that you trusted hurt you over and over again..
and you sit here questioning: what did I do wrong?

I see things that were done..
I see a little bit more each day..
I can't understand causing that much..
 pain to another human being..





There is a war going on inside me now....
I hear In Jesus name AMEN..
I want to throw up

it can't be real...








I cling to P as if she is my last hope...
a thin rope to hang on to
an anchor to keep me from drowning...

Sam who cries in the night..
doubled over in pain...
help us help us please

I ask for all inside..
let this end let the pain subside..
let us live
let us dance in the sunshine..

I ask does anyone..

know the horror of DID ??
anyone?????






Together.. I love you




SOME IMAGES BORROWED FROM GOOGLE