Sunday, March 17, 2013

I AM HERE

I am here...
I don't know where here is.
this space has been dark and quiet ...

I understand so much...
I understand nothing..

I thought I understood...
 this thing called DID..

I was wrong..
I understand nothing..






Process...
that has become the hated word..

Therapy...
no clue what that really meant..

The ones that were there for us....
they are still here..

I don't understand why...



P ...
still my rope to hang on to..

I am here...
Please tell me where I am .....










Together... I love you






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7 comments:

  1. And we're still here too, Bonnie, praying and sending loving thoughts to you. ♥

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  2. Always here Chicky...even when we don't always know where 'here' is :) Sending you lots of love and hugs!!! And hoping that a break away will give you some well-needed rest ♥♥♥

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  3. Such a long time I have heard from you ~ sending you hugs ~ my thoughts and prayers are with you ~ take care

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