Saturday, June 29, 2013

TIME OF MAKE BELIEVE




This is a time of make believe....
living in a fantasy......
nothing seems real..
nothing matters..
we feel weak and want to go away ..
give up ...




our perception is things have changed with P ..
she assures us nothing has changed and she is still there....

we have feelings of other times when things have changed with others ..
where we weren't safe..
when we felt we had to hide..

we feel that again....

She says she is here and not going anywhere,,,
 but inside we feel we are losing her,,,
 we know our abandonment issues are in play here ,,

we don't know how to change things like that

She says we are stuck..
 we don't feel stuck as we have before..
 we are aware that we have shut down...
but she is still able through hypnosis able to contact the others ...

we feel so lost and not as ourselves...
 as something or someone is pushing through..
sometimes we are in the car not knowing how to drive...

we leave P as Bonnie or Bongo..
and someone else enters the car...
we don't even know why we are there...

the noise in our head is like a bomb is going to explode ..
 so loud we can not hear the phone or TV,,,


we now want to give up ..
 quit everything..
go back to a time where no one knew we existed..
Bonnie wants to go so deep inside that she would no longer exist,,,
the system would have to take over....

TOGETHER... I LOVE YOU

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  1. My heart breaks for you, dear one . . . Holding you close in prayer and love.

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