Tuesday, October 8, 2013

JEN AND ZIPPY





I should be writing, that's what I'm supposed to do ..

aren't I?
So very much has happened in the past months..
summer which usually is my good season seemed brutal...




All 3 kids going through different chaos....
I met a friend and lost a friend...
My apt burned down..
we had to move and replenish everything,,,
thank God for renters insurance.
Physically I have not felt well and lost an amazing amount of weight..
food doesn't taste or smell good..

Todays session we went back to Jen..
she's 5 years old and sucks her thumb..
she rarely talks but she did talk to P today..

here is her story :

When Jen was 5 it was the best day of her life…
it was her birthday and mommy and daddy bought her a puppy..
he was half collie half husky and all he could do was lick on her…
everywhere she went he followed.. she named him zippy…..
then bad stuff happened but she didn't care cause she could tell her best friend anything and he would keep her secrets….
then when she was 7 mommy moved to a welfare apt..
and weren't allowed dogs…
mommy said daddy took zippy to play on the farm…
it wasn't till years later she found out daddy had him killed and she never forgave him..

This is the Zippy that P gave to Jen..
something to hold on to something to love that is just for her.

she still cries.




Together .. I love you.




SOME IMAGES BORROWED FROM GOOGLE 

6 comments:

  1. <3<3<3 I miss you woman, I love you too!

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  2. Awhhh, how awful! But, as in everything, there is good...Jen IS telling P her story and hopefully, that will bring you closer to a resolution. I love you Chicky!

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  3. I've missed you. So sorry about what happened to Zippy; that was heartless. Hugs for all of you.

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  4. Love you, dear Bonnie, and miss you so much! What a travesty losing Zippy on top of everything else. P. understands . . .

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